My best acheivement for last week was to realize that the understanding of love relationship has been moving into a new era.

 

One of my co-worker, a close friend who is one year younger than me, used to tell me before that he did not mind his girlfriend to cheat on him as long as he does not hear about it.

I told him that I think he could do so only because he'd never really loved any of the girlfriends who have been chasing him because of his looking and smartness in the past.  However, he raised his objection to my little judgement by telling me something I don't know how to response.  "We human can love more than one at the same time and it is such a natual thing."  "If you can love two children at the same time, why can't you love two men or two women at the same time?"  I kept silent for a while, and told him in the end that perhaps there is only few people in the world think in the same way like US.  Or many people have realized it but they have to keep denying themselves because it does not follow the mainstream. 

 

Yes, I do think it is possible, though I also know people are programmed in very different ways, so not everyone shares the same opinions and has the same limitation.

 

The dimension  was developed even further when I had dinner with a new friend from England.  ...Write later, sleeping mode..

今月に入って初めて、下に後輩がつくようになりました。

 

後輩に指示したり、後輩に聞かれて答えたりするたびにびくびくします、

・・・間違えたらどうしよう、後輩のほうがわかっていたらどうしよう、って

 

これまでは上に甘えたり、わからないことがあってもうまく自分に逃げ道を作ったりして、割とのんびりしながら仕事をこなせてきたが、

これからは、先輩としての自覚を持ちながらしっかり下に教えられるようにしっかり勉強しなきゃ。

 

ああ、やっと家に帰れる、疲れたかも、咳して疲れた。

明日も頑張る

 

p.s.今日は友達からとっても温かい励ましのメッセージをいただいたから誰かとシェアしたいと思って、勝手ながら載せさせていただきます。

 

Honey, wanna tell you that today is a beautiful day. I am happy because I have good and bad in life. They make me to be who I am.

You too.

I love you.

 

(Thank you J, I love you too / Cat)

Today, for the first in my life, I decided not to keep in touch with someone anymore. And I know I really mean it.

 

Certainly there have been people who I you know probably you will not have a chance to see again or hear from. But it’s not the same this time.

I did know sooner or later it might be going to happen eventually, but never thought it would have come so soon and sudden.

 

 

I understand perfectly that this can not really be counted a lifetime decision, and it does not affect my life at all. But, still, suddenly I feel empty, I feel I am like a kid who just lost something really important. I feel there is a hole in my heart, and I am scared without a clear reason.

 

But, I will be alright.

オフィスでの愚痴：

 

もうちょっと自分のアイデアをしっかりまとめてから指示を出せ！

人が完成させたところでいちいちコンセプトを変えるな！

 

 

オフィスで自分への愚痴：

 

もっと細かいところまで注意を払え！

 

 

オフィスでの妄想：

 

お昼、疲れて、食欲がなくて、何を食べようかと迷いながら

後ろに座っている先輩が奥さんのお弁当を美味しく食べている姿を見たら、

”あああ、手作りのお弁当がほしいなぁ、結婚したほうがいいかな”って思ってしまった

・・・この発想のどこか間違っているような・・・汗